I can't even remember the last time I was truly happy, that's what I feel when I see other people fun pics on Facebook. Its been long when I let myself free or did something really crazy. I have forgotten how an adrenalin rush feels inside the body. I am bored of living this routine and non-fun life. Its just 5 days of office spent in front of the laptop waiting for the weekend to come and weekends spent doing non-sense shopping or sleeping around. All this might have given me the momentary happiness but nothing that could flush my face red or made my heart beat in happiness at least for a week.
Everyone in life has changed with time. Every relation seems so selfish. Although I meet a lot of people laugh and hang around with them but some where inside I know that if I disappear for sometime everyone of them will stop caring after some time.
Sometimes I think of leaving on a long voyage alone, with no mobile phones and no worries, a long voyage that will help me discover me, discover what is important in life and what is not; what I love and what not and may be I can also know what is true happiness and what I am living right now.
Everyone in life has changed with time. Every relation seems so selfish. Although I meet a lot of people laugh and hang around with them but some where inside I know that if I disappear for sometime everyone of them will stop caring after some time.
Sometimes I think of leaving on a long voyage alone, with no mobile phones and no worries, a long voyage that will help me discover me, discover what is important in life and what is not; what I love and what not and may be I can also know what is true happiness and what I am living right now.
Hmm... missing happiness. By the way what you think happiness is? Can you define it?
ReplyDeleteIf you can define it, you will certainly have your answer and you will never feel miserable.
If you have not seen Night, you will not know what Day is. Someone or something is good because someone or something else is bad. If you have not been sad you will not be happy.
All I mean is you cannot define Happiness without things like sadness or misery, problems. Can you?
Moreover Happiness & Sadness are two sides of same coin, they don't have independence existence. If one comes so does the other. So when we pray for happiness we must be prepared for sadness too. That's how life is. So learn to appreciate things as they are. Now please cheer up, if you are feeling sad now, then be sure happiness too will be yours after this.
One more thing, we are all flawed, we all have our downside, then why complain and expect someone to be perfect. People are not bad as you think, everyone has some good qualities, try to find that and celebrate it. This way you will have lot less to worry about.
tc
You sure have a great outlook for life... Seems like you have been through a lot...
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing you views. I really appreciate it
Yah we all learn that through ups & down of our life as we grow up. You too will do well to realise that.
ReplyDeleteWhat you see in others' fun pics, is just a moment of their life, it does not describe their whole life. Ups and Downs are the cycle of life which we all go through, including the peoples whose pics you were looking at. Don't worry you too will have your moments, to share like them.
Dark have been your thoughts lately, I wanted to say you all these long back, somehow held back myself. But I had to say all these. Thought you were doing well in new place and job, it seems happiness still remains elusive to you.....
Have a positive outlook to life, you will do absolutely fine then.
take care
Hey.. been sometime that i visited your blog. I totally understand your condition, hell i have been feeling the same for an eternity now. When we were kids, our elders would tell us, do this thing or that thing when you are grown up. When we do grow up start earning and perhaps possess the resources to fulfill our childhood/teenager wishes, suddenly the zeal to do so disappears. We keep wondering, waiting for a day that it will come back. Work takes predominance, even though we do not mean it to make it a priority, lack of the zeal to do other things in life makes it one. A monotonous life beckons us each monday. We crave for a weekend and it is spent sleeping. Shopping may drown your sorrows for some time, but the internal loneliness/sadness you feel, keeps denting your enthusiasm for life.
ReplyDeleteWatching fb pics of your acquaintances visiting places, doing some idiotic stuff and then we wonder ** i wish it was me in those pics**.
Where have we lost the fun element? Our we not the same person we used to be, or have we mellowed down ?
The answer is yes and no...
change is the only constant and as time progresses , certain things will often change subtly and you won't even know untill those things start affecting you, but the core you possess will not change.
You may need to re live the kid once more in your life.
The long voyage you talk about will not give you the happiness you seek. An introspection of life may help you get rid of unwanted things in life, but the search of happiness will remain futile, till the time you have a bunch of friends or perhaps a couple of close ones with whom you can be completely idiotic, share your silly daily life and still laugh about it. Happiness and sadness is best shared and there is no point in hoarding them.
The people with whom you hang out with could be temporary elements or they may give you the permanence you seek in life and relations. Stop worrying about what will happen when you disappear. Try and be wise when it comes to choosing friends and if you come across the temporary elements, there is no point in wasting your time with them.
Give life a chance to make you happy again... the happiness rests inside you.
All the best ma'am
@ Ruckus John - As always . u expressed my words than I did.. :)
ReplyDelete:) Probably because we are going through the same phase. Tough times will pass soon ma'am.
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ReplyDeleteHehe.. even i am trying to write something..
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Come out of the hibernation mode madame ? What's keeping you busy ?
ReplyDeleteNothing yaar.. its everyday haphazard life that has got all my attention these days..
ReplyDeleteSee I wrote hopefully in the last post..
But seriously thanks for reminding.. :)
An email reminder about a comment is all what connects you with the blog now, isn't it ?.Anyway, I too have a blog, but stopped updating it a long time back. It could be kind of lame. How is your professional life going on? Is it what you expected it to be or better than that ?
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