Sick n alone

I missed you mom. Yesterday night I was all alone in the house and in the city, and my head and body was paining so badly, I think I had fever around 103 Fahrenheit. I missed you much and was thinking about the times when you used to wake up whole night checking my fever by touching my forehead with your palms, used to be awake just to check that if I am sleeping properly. Mom there was no one yesterday and I could not sleep. I had to wake up on my own and take a pain killer. I knew the only thing that could comfort me was your voice and you picked up my phone at 4 in the morning like you knew I would call. Its difficult being alone but knowing that you will be there always makes it a lil easy.
I love you mom.

'' mein kabhi batlata nai....
par andhere se darta hum mein maa
yun to mein dikhlata nai....
teri parwah karta hum mein maa
tujhe sab hai pta hai na maa
tujhe sab hai pta meri maa''

Power of relation

I read these amazing and true lines in news paper today and couldn't stop myself from sharing on my blog.

' Consider the power of weakness! Even the power of a relationship it is rightly said. lies with the one who cares less .. never with the one who cares more and so has more at stake! So the weaker your love, the more powerful you are to mould or manoeuvre the relationship and your partner as and how you wish to! And yet , what a miserable power when the partner's weakest link, his/her strong love for you, would be the biggest weapon you would use against them!
Its is indeed our moments of weakness and weak points that we need to guard.. it's when you are most comfortable that you should be more guarded too. '

Moving to a new place

We come to a new place with certain fears and new expectations about our lives. We start living there, meet new people, gradually make new friends, starting loving them without thinking that there might come a day when you have to go away from them. I hate the last part of all this. Why can't we choose people we want to live with and eliminate the unwanted one's.

But I guess this is life otherwise how would we add new people in our book of friends and feel more and more wonderful experiences with these people.
Infact I admit our relation get better after we are separated because we only realize the value of somethings when they are taken away from us.

I miss you my friends.

Scientists

When I was a kid I used to imagine all scientists like Einstein or Newton; shabby hair all white, popping out eyes, geek, insane and depressingly rude. Sort of out of the world  people totally freaking type. I never ever wanted to be one. I used to be a dynamic student in my college involved in all kinds of curricular and extra curricular activities. I always imagined myself as being a Manager of a company and finally landing up as the CEO after some 10-15 years. I maintained my notion of scientist till college time even. After completing B.Tech from IIT I landed up as a scientist. I was totally freaked out before joining and yes I still maintain my notion of scientist though not totally but 50 % of it is still there. But now I think some qualities that make a scientist weird are actually necessary for the profession. Like for example one has to be in total love with solitude if he wants to work with total dedication though hair being gray is not necessary. I have met many wonderful charming scientists in my present job who have devoted whole of their life so that world can get something new and amazing. One very important thing I learnt here is never judge a person by his appearance. I have seen people so brainy and smart but poorly dressed because they know their brain is so powerful that they don't need external attractions to impress a person. Though I love the environment here, I respect the people working so hard but for me I think I am a misfit. I think I can contribute more if I work at a place where actually I can show my knowledge and talent both.

My birthday

Its strange how difficult times do good to our lives sometimes. Recently one of my friends had an accidents. Not a very major one but it gave us lot of stress. Running through the hospitals and pacing up and down the hostel for fetching things. But it was strange that it brought 4 of us very close as friends. We cared for each other, we calmed each other when any one panicked. Although it was very difficult to handle everything but our friendship got us through. We actually get to know a person in times of need only. So some people even revealed their true shrewd faces hidden behind the friendly one's.
But all well that ends well. She is good now.

It was my birthday cake which got her into accident. She went to take my cake only when she met an accident. I feel bad. But I am really lucky to get such good friends at every moment in life; in college and in job even. Inspite of having so much tension they brought cake for me and celebrated my birthday. Love you guys.
I'll never forget this birthday ever.
Thanks Suchitra, Nidhi, Rasmita and Abhishek.