Friday, June 17, 2011

Weird state of mind

Totally puzzled and feared... I don't know why and what is happening with me right now. But my mind is very confused as to what to take along and what to leave behind. I am a very possessive and clingy type of person. I get attached to everything I think is mine, my heart breaks in leaving them behind even if it means my old clothes or an old pen. But this time its not about a pen its about something I thought would stay with me forever. But some how it is slipping out of my hand the harder I am trying to hold it. I don't know whether it was my fault or the destiny. May be I didn't played my part right or may be I was putting to much pressure on to it because of the fear of loosing it. I am afraid. How am I going to ever fill the void that will be created. 
May be I should try again.  A last try with the spirit of little less to ask and much more to give. Still I fear, a lot but somethings are worth taking a risk so that future can be lived without regrets.