Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Solution of my mysteries

Mysteries come in a locked box and only one person that comes to your life has the key, now it is up to you whether you show him the box and ask for the key or not. My box has has been recently unlocked  by my best friend because I had the courage and belief to show it. I think I was the lucky one in this matter.

I know what I want in from my self and how to achieve it. I know where the God will take me to. On this note I think the God only sent him to me after reading my previous blog. Truly there exists some hidden powers and forces which we call God.
Today I got the opportunity to solve the greatest doubt I had i.e. what is it that make our future is it the karma or the luck or is it both.The actual answer is our own deeds and karma make our future surely but with the consent of God. Not everyone devoted to karma gets success because there's something else waiting for him. God chooses what's best for us and what is expected of us is to trust him and continue doing our work. Whether we admit it or not results are beyond our control so why not stop thinking about it or at least try and let God do that for us. We being humans always desire for the end result of all our efforts and work, natural and that's what drive us to work hard also and that is the only positive energy. If still the work is not done leave it may be something better than this is there for you in store.
All this might not help me a lot but atleast it will reduce the negative in me. Atleast it will reduce my worries.
I am happy with all the teachings I got from my lovely bestest friend. This friend seem like a God messenger to me in times of sadness.  Thank you god for sending him to earth for me.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

My unindentified desires

What do I want from my life? Do I know about it? Am I clear about it. I don't know. I am just too confused and dissatisfied with my life. I think I just wasted 23 years of my life doing nothing and now I don'y know what I am looking for. This is such a messy situation dear god! Is this the situation with me or there are any other like me. If there are I would certainly like to meet them and clear away my doubts.

Few months earlier I thought my life is taking me to the exact path I wanted to but what do I exactly wanted? I think I want to be the happiest of all or do I want the money or do I want friends and family. Firstly I want to know what is the core of life, what makes it and what are the essential ingredients that make it up. May be then I will decide what I want.
I wonder who can answer all my questions or am i asking the correct questions. I have heard a lot of times from my elders that it is not the humans that decide it is god and he has already written our destiny; then why is a human punished for his crimes as it is god who drove him towards doing that. And then why it is said that we have to bear the fruit of all our deeds on this planet earth only. Why bother us for a deed already done if we are mere puppets of gods.
I think everyone here are like me only formulating there own sayings and words according to the situation, so unclear and foolish. At least I know that I am confused but they even don't know this. Finally I found at least a thing that I am clear about.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

LIfe's been a total failure

I have been a total failure in every respect of mu life. Not even a single soul I know is satisfied with what I am and with what I did for them. Even I myself is nit satisfied with what I've lived through all these years. Failed at every step, I think I've reached the height of unsatisfaction. After all what is happening to me I don't know was it my fault or just the destiny that was meant to happen. I tried and worked harder and harder, got exhausted whole my life just to be successful, but got nothing in return. Or did I just not worked enough, what I thought was sufficient may but it was not.

I always lived with the aim of pleasing everyone, my parents, friends, loved ones, teachers and everyone. But what I actually landed with was  just the opposite of it all. Disappointed and hurt everyone's feelings. I suppose I just don't belong to this world. May be I reach everywhere at wrong place and at the wrong time. Truly speaking I am tired now. I've just given up all hopes and desires. I want nothing from anyone and neither do I want them to expect anything from me. Because what will I be a total failure all my life. Just want to be alone someplace where my mind stop working, my heart stop beating, my eyes close away from this world and away from any one I love. Because I am just too much sick and tired of all my life.
Sometimes I am just too jealous of all the happy people around me which make me hate myself so much. I wish wouldn't have born. This world is too imposing and cruel.
Please take me away!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Archie weds Betty

Recent updates for the Archie fans. He decides to propose Betty, ditching the hot babe Veronica. Truly speaking even I wanted Archie to marry Betty; the homely and innocent Jane. Being a girl I found myself close to that character. may be because I was not that hot or may be being not that rich or may be because every Indian girl is raised with the teachings like that of Betty. That was my reasons for wanting Archie to marry Betty but I think even every boy wanted the same, no one wanted him to marry the hot girl. Why is this dual mentality; date the hot one and marry the innocent one.
I have full sympathy with both the girls. When dating comes always the Veronica type are chosen as they don't bore the boys with any issues like money or home or anything. They are just the chillax one's. Just go and have fun. They are not to be bothered. Get them and forget them is the real mantra that works on both the sides. But when it comes to marriage boys think the girl should be attentive, caring, concerned on all the issues so that they don't have to worry about anything, not for family atleast. Thinking on it boys have all the benefits any ways. They are the one's who are carefree hamesha! Why can't a hot one be a good wife? Why can't a boy take her as his wife and pamper her the same way as he does before?
Why always a girl has to change herself according to demands of the boys for becoming a good girl friend and a good wife? Even a boy should try to adjust and mold himself accordingly. But I guess it has always been a male chauvinist society always and will never change the way it adopted some 1000 years ago.
Anyways congratulations Betty and my full sympathy for the other girl. Hope she'll get some one nicer if she could change herself a little bit.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Cry and you cry alone

Cry and you cry alone, laugh and the world will laugh with you.Today I truly understood what this pithy wanted to convey since so many years. Nobody loves a crying baby except your own parents. No matter how much you think that the other person supports you or is understanding your trouble, never ever commit a mistake of totally relying on him. Everyone wants to be with a charming person even we should admit to ourselves that we are not the exceptions. Being practical is always a better option until it comes to ourselves. Its the only condition when heart defeats brain of our so called practical youths, and that's when you loose. Barehanded and open mouthed that is what describe the situation when you actually realize what just happened to your life.
Always listen to your brains that's the best advice I can give to all those searching for a support desperately. Nobody but you parents or you yourself can struggle with your mishap; either crying it out or any other way you like it to but never ever submit yourself. After all nobody is your servant (not even servants bear it nowadays!) to bear your loads of problems onto his shoulders. Just believe your God, your parents( I repeat) and your brains. These are your full time assets and you can do whatever you want to with them; cry, shout, fight or just have faith.
A poem copied from a blog but really touching...

I am alone,
so very alone

I hurt,
so very bad

I am ignored,
just thrown aside

I am security,
for others to have

I am lonely,
there is no one close,
no one sees the pain

I cry,
hope is gone

I am alone,
and no one knows

Friday, October 9, 2009

The good old college days

Just like Purani jeans and guitar, were the good old carefree college days, hostel life. The best period of everyone's life is there when we just purchased our own piece of sky, learned to fly with sometimes injured wings and sometimes holding hands with our fleet members. Ah! Those days can never be forgotten. 
Late night gossips, birthday bumps, water parties with everybody drenched and rooms flooded with water. Enthusiastic just like a monkey let loose from the cage, a little frightened but full of youthfulness. This life teaches a lot not only to love and make friendship but also to survive and create your stand in an unknown newly created world. Away from parents protective laps, we begin to know ourselves for the first time, estimate our potentials, create our own identity, bring creativity, support ourselves and the friends in times of need. Search and offer shoulders in times of depressions. Huge parties and 9-12 movie shows at times of happiness. Search for protection in our seniors. What not? These four years of life are just priceless and make my life worth living. 
Now when everything get over you still have those friends you made for life; loving you and encouraging to struggle in this unworthy of living corporate world. Where there are no one to give you a  cozy hug, no one to take care when you are ill and no one to pat you when you miss you mommy. 
If only I could get Alladin's chirag I will wish to live those four years again with all my loved one's back there. 

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Hurray! Atleast its not the worst place to live in

According to HDR (Human Development Report) 2009 among 182 countries India ranks 134th best country to live in.with Niger being the worst and Norway being the best. Its a great relief. We can now imagine what these other below Indian level countries would be facing. Although conditions here are also not too good. Newspapers are flooded with daily mishaps. Our attitude is needs to be changed. It should be a more liberal, caring and broad minded.Until and unless we can respect our citizens, respect them, then what development we can expect.
Recently PT Usha was denied a decent demeanor from the organizing authorities of National Athlete meet. If we cant respect and treat our existing athletes well how can we expect to breed up the new ones. Is this the land where cricket is a religion for people. We can spend crores and crores for a single and for other we don't even have a penny. This is no attitude. Then why do we cry over our incompetency in Olympics when we deliver our gratitude in such an unrespectful way.
Other incident of an AI air hostess, who was allegedly molested midair. No place is safe; neither on land, inside water and nor in air. We boast of women empowerment but this incident doesn't reflect the one. We don't expect a 24X7 safety but at least a good judiciary system which can hear the appeals, the injustice going around.
If want our country to grow people have to develop there minds first. Adopt some corporate behavior and a decent respect for the society and the people living in it. Not to suppress the minority but to let it flourish. We have to leave our male chauvinism behind. Then only we can dream of changes otherwise India is and will remain 134th.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

the creator-God: Drama in Reality

the creator-God: Drama in Reality

Drama in Reality

Ye nahi dekha to kya dekha! Lots of Reality shows are on air recently breaking the trend of witty Ekta Kapoor's family drama. Latest in the news are Pati Patni aur woh and Big Boss starring Amitabh Bachchan. The former casting Rakhi and the later Rakhi's mom. These television people leave no stone unturned to let the controversy creep in.
The government recently announced not to use child actors as this is against the laws but this law was made liberal on accounts off the actors claiming that they work willfully. So just their working hours were limited but what about the newly born. These children are harassed in the reality show. I really think what their parents are up to. I've heard even a chimpanzee wont let her child separated from her, are they worst than the animals. What sort of social evolution is this? Where these reality shows are taking our society to? Boys and girls sharing same houses, showing off vulgarity with such prides that too on air. This wasn't the Indian culture. I actually don't get the idea of these shows. You are being locked up in a certain space for few days without your contact with outside world. Is this the task. I myself has not gone out and visit any of my friends for about a month. That makes me eligible for the show I suppose.
Or is the reality about how much insects and animals you can bear or take into your stomach. Then I think most of us will be ruled out because of being the unfortunate vegetarians.
Frankly speaking there's no reality in these made up shows. They make up controversies to increase the TRP. Harass innocent children, show superficial truths, spoil the image of a true Indian culture and are just not an apt material to be shown on Indian television where watching television is a family activity that includes all generations. I wish we could revert back to Mahabharat days or Potli baba ki. It was such fun

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Aaj ke Ravan

Imagine if Ravan would have lived in 21st century. Lets redraw the history. Ravan with his gang would have entered Ramji's house faking the security system and may be he would come as a salesman rather than a priest asking for food. Sitaji would have gone inside for some water and in the mean time he would have given her the chloroform and kidnapped her. Taking her to his den. Now what? As the story goes he just took her. didn't even asked for extortion money, neither abused her and to the astonishment didn't even tried to touch her forcefully.
But our 21st century Ravan would not be a such gentleman.
All what the above story depicts is there are uncountable number of Ravan's existing in this society now. No road is safe for a girl. What's the reason, the reason being the judiciary system. Ravan was killed just for kidnapping Sitaji. But now hardly a punishment of 2-3 years. Is that enough? After destroying an innocent girl's life should that person be so easily allowed to go away. Infact if  the criminal is a high society spoiled kid he spares himself from even this minor punishment.
Our government actually need to improve the judiciary system. They need to atleast learn lessons from Indian mythology. Otherwise with such a rapid increase in girl abuse the day is not far when all the girls would have to roam around in burkhaas. Until and unless we can't keep the female gender of the society safe its completely useless to talk of gender equality.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Globally Across the world

What? U don't know the latest updates on Twitter. Sashi tharoor calling economy class the cattle class. Yes, not only the youths but our Indian politicians are also connected globally through the social networking sites. No wonder if Baba Ramdev, Aasaram ji and all the religious leaders also have a twitter account, after all its their right. Sometime later a new fundamental right would be added to our constitution- Right to get a twitter/orkut /facebook account.
When I first joined orkut some 4 years earlier, it was a matter of awe to have an account. One has to get a friend request from an already joined member then only he could create an account. That time intenet facilities were also not available like we have it now. But now even a newly born can get his orkut account as a gift on his first birthday. These google people globalized the world in true sense. Just imagine the scenario change in these 4-5 years. Earlier- people used to starve to meet their long lost schoolmates, to know what their friends might be doing, the only mode was telephones and not everybody had that much money to stay connected 24X7 but now you can actually can know everybody around the globe. Not only friends, but friends friends and firends friends friends can find you , no matter where you gon and bury your face. You can display your albums online, flaunt yourself and get comments.
You might not be knowing who lives in your neighborhood but you are sure of who live in north pole. It has done opposite of what actually its name, made a person loner, sluggish and geek like. Sitting alone sticked to your computer and chatting. How good is that? You know what's happening but you are not a physical part of it. You can just sit and watch. It only gives a virtual picture of the society. Infact, increases depression cases, makes a person dull. I don't think that's a very good basis for the future society sirji.
I think it did harm but did more good to the society, after all everyone has the right to express himself, right to get acquainted. Not only people but you can also communicate with groups of your intrest, share knowledge, pass on data, get educated and lots of endless stuffs. May be its upto the user to take its advantage or let it take our advantage.
For me- Thanks to all these sites! Helped me a lot at everystage; gave me back my freinds, cost free communication and widely spreaded knowledge bank and I take it as a point to experience everything myself what my friends have displayed online so that I don't get dull and lathargic. Also I know who my neighbors are and where my friends live in northpole both.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Life Sucks

I am just beginning to hate my life. Nothing goes according to the plan, nothing seems like what i dreamt of. Its all very frightening. The only question that comes to my mind is why me?Why me of all the people in the world. I just want to say all the abusive words about my life. Its never been perfect. It always goes opposite of what I want it to be. In short its everything is f****** disgusting.
In all the traditional families like mine, where studies are given the supreme importance are bribed by saying ' just some years beta, study well and you'll be happy forever in your life' and you go and sit back to do your studies just like an obedient child. I always did my best, topped in class then got into IITs, topped there, got scholarships and did many projects; all in the hope of getting a bright future, which I see nowhere near me now. Its not like I am a pessimist type person. I always learn from what went wrong earlier. But why am I the only person who is made to learn at every step, why not my other peers who don't even have a straight mind to think what is good and what is bad. At this moment I am feeling pathetic about myself.
I think its better not to think ahead of time. Frankly speaking I will not. Accept what life throws at you and forget what it snatches away- from now on this will be my sole philosophy in life.
This thing called life truly sucks. It makes you suffer and suffer and suffer. The more you want the more it leaves you bare handed.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Astrology- A growing business idea

Whole of my family gathers around the TV with mobile phone in their hand, watching the very famous astrology show on telivision. its almost a evryday chore, but phone hai ki lagta hi nahi.
This astrology business has rejuvenated after a long time of silence.
Almost all the news channels nowadays have daily 2-3 hours of future broadcast. Not only that but also Live shows where you are supposed to ask question on your existing pathetic conditions and they'll tell you on air how to improve it. Sometimes it looks so stupid. But atleast they are better than Saas Bahu shows.
Some of the shows, they may not improve your condition but truly promote a society welfare. Now you may be thinking how. They suggest you solutions like giving cow, ants and birds the food, treating your relatives well, helping the poor etc. In a way they are helping the society.
But predicting the future... I don't know wether there's actually a way they know our futures, past and present.
Not only in India but almost every country have their future predicting devices. You can know your future from almost evrything, you just have to know the idea I suppose. For eg. there's coffee future prediction, handwriting, numerology, date and birth time, your face,your hand and a lot more.
Accept it or not we all believe it to some extent. I do believe it myself especially when its good and want it to come true. I think that's the way the world works. Follow your heart wether it sounds real or not. Vishwas karne se to pathar mein bhi jaan aa jaati hai, to ismein kya burai hai.

Rakhi Sawant

The most hot and happening girl of bollywood, infact she is the most flashed celebrity on news channel Aaj Tak. The cast her on air whenever they have a free slot. She is the world's best newsmaker. I can recall in the 1 year she's been on the news for her-
1. Breast implant
2. The world famous Rakhi ka Swayamwar (I think she regards herself to be princess)
3. Mica's controversial Kiss
4. For the dance reality show.
5. Now for the reality show 'Pati patni aur wo' (Swatmwar to kar liya, lo ab bacha sambhalo)
My god what a happ she is!!!
She is a real time drama queen but apart from all these there are qute a lot of things to be learnt from her. This girl inspires always to work hard, be yourself. Let the world talk behind your back because it can never be with you (no matter wether you are following the right path or the wrong one). People talk behind your back only when you are ahead of them. She is the creator of her own destiny. Never regrets her past deeds. I actualy salute her courage and confidence.
I thinks this is the key for the real happiness and survival in this brutual world.
Today, that is why I chose to write about this beautiful, sexy and bold girl. Its really heart breaking to see all of your friends and well wishers leaving you on your way to success due to jealousy and new ones joining you just to take advantage of you.
You are born alone and have to die alone so as this brave girl suggest. Just be yourself aur apne mann ki karo.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

The Starvation

Starvation- This word governs life of each and every individual around this world. As a child we starve for protection, love and care. As we grow old we starve for getting a position in school, among friends and being the favorite everywhere. Then we starve for getting a position, getting money and fame. Finally we starve for getting a good life partner, his/her love and so on the desires and hopes continue for ever n ever, till the life exists. Starvation is like its desire to get the stars which can never happen.
As said' Necessity is the mother of invention' similarly starvation is like the driving force to do better and better in every field. Mainly this for creating your own space in the world. The one who's stronger in the one who governs and rules.
Longing for each and everything in various phases of life we forget to live the present , we are only running to make our future better, which I suppose will never come. We are made to live in present.
In this present phase of recession people are starving for jobs. But behind this scene are the poor and the needy who don't even know what recession is. they are still struggle and starvation is life long, for their daily bread and butter.