Some things go away to never come back

Recently I got the opportunity to visit my Alma mater as a part or recruiting team of my company. I was so excited after all I was going to be there after 2 years of finishing my college but I was skeptical too that I will get all bored with such senior managers of the company as I knew none of them before ( I joined company only 2 months back). But I could never say no to such a wonderful opportunity so I accepted.
And it was the day when we were all sitting at the airport and I was sitting in the corner of the corner most seat at the airport restaurant.I really didn't wanted to open my mouth without thinking as it might get reflected in my performance reviews later on so I choose to sit quiet for a while and know all these people. Suddenly one of my very senior manager (he is sort of vice president of India office and lets call him X) started talking to me . I already knew he was my alumni from college but didn't really expected what was about to come. We started talking about the college , the hostels, the famous local cuisines, the shops near the college that used to be there at his time as compared to mine, and we talked about literally everything and everything that used to exist in college. He was so much in love with his college days although it was past around 23 years for him but we talked for hours about old college buddies till we reached there.
I was so excited that I was enjoying the trip as compared to what all I had imagined in my mind for past 2 days. After completing some group discussions in college we were done for that day. Me and X sort of made our plans to go to local places and try some of the tastes that we never got after leaving this city and hearing about our plans everyone also got excited and decided to tag along. We had so much fun.
In-spite of second day being so hectic still we found out some time to go to some more places and make our journey the memorable one. Thanks to X his energy even at this age was so contagious that kinda dragged everyone inside.
I guess this is the beauty of the college too. I have never seen people of other colleges going so crazy about their Alma mater as the people of my college. It has sort of divine energy being located at a holy place. It always remind everyone of the peaceful and fun days that they spent here. Seriously some things go away to never come back.
I miss you college.. Those were and will always be the best days of my life

Thodi si jo pee li h...

The famous song lines- now a culture of most of the cities.Mostly with the college goings and especially in metro cities. I could never understand the fascination of some of friends about drinking. And I actually realize this now that girls used to be even more fascinated than boys. People consider it as a symbol of their modernized life and few people who are not ready to follow this hard drinked path are considered as obsolete.
During office parties open bar is an utter necessity, people don't feel like they are enjoying until the are drowned in glass full of scotch.And those people who still choose to have a glass of orange juice feel like an outsider as if they have no sense of modernized world or what.
Lounges.. the so called 'Most Happening Places to go represent another hang out place for upper classers. Music so loud that you literally have to shout to talk to the person sitting next to you, lights so dimmed that you have to open your mobile to read out the menu card.
I am not at all against adopting the western culture or anything. Even I consider myself a decently modernized enough girl who would love to dress up, have fun, go out with friends but with certain values and principles that I can't ever compromise on my side. But why am I always made to feel like a gawar or a small town person who will never understand what high class things are and I will never be able to grow up from a small town girl status until I start doing all these things. Its a real shock to them when I say I don't drink and yes I have never even tried to taste the Amritras.

Birthday Wish (A post copied from another blog)

The clock has just strike 12 ,

A new day has begun.

A day when many people come and wish me ; bless me ;

Shower love and gifts and what not.

Today is the day , when I’m treated like a Princess.

Nothing I ask is refused.

Everyone is around me,

Surprising me,

Trying to make me happy.

They ask me to make a wish,

The Birthday Wish!

Something rational rather practical.

But at this moment ,

I wanna be alone , silent .

Wanna look at the sky,

Search for the stars

And make a silent wish..

A wish for a person ,

A person , whom right now ,

Yeah! Right now , I can go and hug so tight ,

Cry on his shoulders.

Who can kiss away the pain,

Who can wipe off the tears,

Who can just sit with me,

Who can just take me into his arms,

And make me feel safe.

Someone who can set me free.

And yeah!

Someone who can look me in the eyes and

Say “I missed you” and really means it.

(Touch wood)

P.S. I Love You :-*

Copied from: http://emotionssetfree.blogspot.com/2011/08/birthday-wish.html

Once again a new place and a new city

I have entered a new phase of my life. New city, atmosphere, new emotions and a new work place. I have reached a phase where some old things will slip out and some new things will enter. I cam here with many new hopes for my future. Some of them got true the moment I came here, some are yet to be fulfilled and some might fail too. But due to uncertainty of loosing your past or some dreams remaining un-achieved we never stop expecting or dreaming. We keep on taking risks and that is more important I think.

No matter how many times you get hurt or how many times you fail never stop believing or trying. No matter how many time you get betrayed or how many times you are let down never stop loving or hoping.

But along with it always know where to stop and when to let go because sometime it takes more guts to let go of a thing than holding it forever and going on hoping that some day it will bet alright.

Weird state of mind

Totally puzzled and feared... I don't know why and what is happening with me right now. But my mind is very confused as to what to take along and what to leave behind. I am a very possessive and clingy type of person. I get attached to everything I think is mine, my heart breaks in leaving them behind even if it means my old clothes or an old pen. But this time its not about a pen its about something I thought would stay with me forever. But some how it is slipping out of my hand the harder I am trying to hold it. I don't know whether it was my fault or the destiny. May be I didn't played my part right or may be I was putting to much pressure on to it because of the fear of loosing it. I am afraid. How am I going to ever fill the void that will be created. 

May be I should try again.  A last try with the spirit of little less to ask and much more to give. Still I fear, a lot but somethings are worth taking a risk so that future can be lived without regrets.