Solution of my mysteries

Mysteries come in a locked box and only one person that comes to your life has the key, now it is up to you whether you show him the box and ask for the key or not. My box has has been recently unlocked  by my best friend because I had the courage and belief to show it. I think I was the lucky one in this matter.

I know what I want in from my self and how to achieve it. I know where the God will take me to. On this note I think the God only sent him to me after reading my previous blog. Truly there exists some hidden powers and forces which we call God.
Today I got the opportunity to solve the greatest doubt I had i.e. what is it that make our future is it the karma or the luck or is it both.The actual answer is our own deeds and karma make our future surely but with the consent of God. Not everyone devoted to karma gets success because there's something else waiting for him. God chooses what's best for us and what is expected of us is to trust him and continue doing our work. Whether we admit it or not results are beyond our control so why not stop thinking about it or at least try and let God do that for us. We being humans always desire for the end result of all our efforts and work, natural and that's what drive us to work hard also and that is the only positive energy. If still the work is not done leave it may be something better than this is there for you in store.
All this might not help me a lot but atleast it will reduce the negative in me. Atleast it will reduce my worries.
I am happy with all the teachings I got from my lovely bestest friend. This friend seem like a God messenger to me in times of sadness.  Thank you god for sending him to earth for me.

My unindentified desires

What do I want from my life? Do I know about it? Am I clear about it. I don't know. I am just too confused and dissatisfied with my life. I think I just wasted 23 years of my life doing nothing and now I don'y know what I am looking for. This is such a messy situation dear god! Is this the situation with me or there are any other like me. If there are I would certainly like to meet them and clear away my doubts.

Few months earlier I thought my life is taking me to the exact path I wanted to but what do I exactly wanted? I think I want to be the happiest of all or do I want the money or do I want friends and family. Firstly I want to know what is the core of life, what makes it and what are the essential ingredients that make it up. May be then I will decide what I want.
I wonder who can answer all my questions or am i asking the correct questions. I have heard a lot of times from my elders that it is not the humans that decide it is god and he has already written our destiny; then why is a human punished for his crimes as it is god who drove him towards doing that. And then why it is said that we have to bear the fruit of all our deeds on this planet earth only. Why bother us for a deed already done if we are mere puppets of gods.
I think everyone here are like me only formulating there own sayings and words according to the situation, so unclear and foolish. At least I know that I am confused but they even don't know this. Finally I found at least a thing that I am clear about.

LIfe's been a total failure

I have been a total failure in every respect of mu life. Not even a single soul I know is satisfied with what I am and with what I did for them. Even I myself is nit satisfied with what I've lived through all these years. Failed at every step, I think I've reached the height of unsatisfaction. After all what is happening to me I don't know was it my fault or just the destiny that was meant to happen. I tried and worked harder and harder, got exhausted whole my life just to be successful, but got nothing in return. Or did I just not worked enough, what I thought was sufficient may but it was not.

I always lived with the aim of pleasing everyone, my parents, friends, loved ones, teachers and everyone. But what I actually landed with was  just the opposite of it all. Disappointed and hurt everyone's feelings. I suppose I just don't belong to this world. May be I reach everywhere at wrong place and at the wrong time. Truly speaking I am tired now. I've just given up all hopes and desires. I want nothing from anyone and neither do I want them to expect anything from me. Because what will I be a total failure all my life. Just want to be alone someplace where my mind stop working, my heart stop beating, my eyes close away from this world and away from any one I love. Because I am just too much sick and tired of all my life.
Sometimes I am just too jealous of all the happy people around me which make me hate myself so much. I wish wouldn't have born. This world is too imposing and cruel.
Please take me away!

Archie weds Betty

Recent updates for the Archie fans. He decides to propose Betty, ditching the hot babe Veronica. Truly speaking even I wanted Archie to marry Betty; the homely and innocent Jane. Being a girl I found myself close to that character. may be because I was not that hot or may be being not that rich or may be because every Indian girl is raised with the teachings like that of Betty. That was my reasons for wanting Archie to marry Betty but I think even every boy wanted the same, no one wanted him to marry the hot girl. Why is this dual mentality; date the hot one and marry the innocent one.
I have full sympathy with both the girls. When dating comes always the Veronica type are chosen as they don't bore the boys with any issues like money or home or anything. They are just the chillax one's. Just go and have fun. They are not to be bothered. Get them and forget them is the real mantra that works on both the sides. But when it comes to marriage boys think the girl should be attentive, caring, concerned on all the issues so that they don't have to worry about anything, not for family atleast. Thinking on it boys have all the benefits any ways. They are the one's who are carefree hamesha! Why can't a hot one be a good wife? Why can't a boy take her as his wife and pamper her the same way as he does before?
Why always a girl has to change herself according to demands of the boys for becoming a good girl friend and a good wife? Even a boy should try to adjust and mold himself accordingly. But I guess it has always been a male chauvinist society always and will never change the way it adopted some 1000 years ago.
Anyways congratulations Betty and my full sympathy for the other girl. Hope she'll get some one nicer if she could change herself a little bit.

Cry and you cry alone

Cry and you cry alone, laugh and the world will laugh with you.Today I truly understood what this pithy wanted to convey since so many years. Nobody loves a crying baby except your own parents. No matter how much you think that the other person supports you or is understanding your trouble, never ever commit a mistake of totally relying on him. Everyone wants to be with a charming person even we should admit to ourselves that we are not the exceptions. Being practical is always a better option until it comes to ourselves. Its the only condition when heart defeats brain of our so called practical youths, and that's when you loose. Barehanded and open mouthed that is what describe the situation when you actually realize what just happened to your life.
Always listen to your brains that's the best advice I can give to all those searching for a support desperately. Nobody but you parents or you yourself can struggle with your mishap; either crying it out or any other way you like it to but never ever submit yourself. After all nobody is your servant (not even servants bear it nowadays!) to bear your loads of problems onto his shoulders. Just believe your God, your parents( I repeat) and your brains. These are your full time assets and you can do whatever you want to with them; cry, shout, fight or just have faith.
A poem copied from a blog but really touching...

Alone

I am alone,
so very alone

I hurt,
so very bad

I am ignored,
just thrown aside

I am security,
for others to have

I am lonely,
there is no one close,
no one sees the pain

I cry,
hope is gone

I am alone,
and no one knows