I am loving it!!

Sitting on the balcony of my 7th floor apartment on a nice windy night with laptop on my lap and old Lata Mangeshkar song playing on it I feel the motivation to write this blog somehow. When I look through the sky of this moonless night I see hundreds of small fireflies lightning the houses of people. A loud factory sayran (sorry i don't know its English word and I couldn't find it either) whistling through the silence of night.People rushing through the lane as some of their loved ones are waiting for them at home.I see lots of cars both big and small lined up inside the society campus.If I try to see a little far I see huge traffic jam with lots of four wheelers packed inside it even at 1am.
All this reminds me of a perfect novel scene. I am loving my balcony right now and thought I just had a fight with my college friend and my flatmate right now (not very big one though!) but I have fall in love with the night for the first time in my life.

Miss you

Sometimes I miss you badly, its difficult to live without you.
I need you to protect me
I need you to pamper me
I need you to correct me whenever I do silly things
I need to pat me whenever I am hurt
I badly need you to love me
I feel so alone these days
I don't know how I am facing this huge world
when you are not near
when you don't even care
I have stopped telling you my fears
I know its such a impossible thing for me
when I used to bother you even with petty things
But yes, I am doing this
But still I miss you badly

Bad enough to make me cry every night I go to sleep

Some things go away to never come back

Recently I got the opportunity to visit my Alma mater as a part or recruiting team of my company. I was so excited after all I was going to be there after 2 years of finishing my college but I was skeptical too that I will get all bored with such senior managers of the company as I knew none of them before ( I joined company only 2 months back). But I could never say no to such a wonderful opportunity so I accepted.
And it was the day when we were all sitting at the airport and I was sitting in the corner of the corner most seat at the airport restaurant.I really didn't wanted to open my mouth without thinking as it might get reflected in my performance reviews later on so I choose to sit quiet for a while and know all these people. Suddenly one of my very senior manager (he is sort of vice president of India office and lets call him X) started talking to me . I already knew he was my alumni from college but didn't really expected what was about to come. We started talking about the college , the hostels, the famous local cuisines, the shops near the college that used to be there at his time as compared to mine, and we talked about literally everything and everything that used to exist in college. He was so much in love with his college days although it was past around 23 years for him but we talked for hours about old college buddies till we reached there.
I was so excited that I was enjoying the trip as compared to what all I had imagined in my mind for past 2 days. After completing some group discussions in college we were done for that day. Me and X sort of made our plans to go to local places and try some of the tastes that we never got after leaving this city and hearing about our plans everyone also got excited and decided to tag along. We had so much fun.
In-spite of second day being so hectic still we found out some time to go to some more places and make our journey the memorable one. Thanks to X his energy even at this age was so contagious that kinda dragged everyone inside.
I guess this is the beauty of the college too. I have never seen people of other colleges going so crazy about their Alma mater as the people of my college. It has sort of divine energy being located at a holy place. It always remind everyone of the peaceful and fun days that they spent here. Seriously some things go away to never come back.
I miss you college.. Those were and will always be the best days of my life

Thodi si jo pee li h...

The famous song lines- now a culture of most of the cities.Mostly with the college goings and especially in metro cities. I could never understand the fascination of some of friends about drinking. And I actually realize this now that girls used to be even more fascinated than boys. People consider it as a symbol of their modernized life and few people who are not ready to follow this hard drinked path are considered as obsolete.
During office parties open bar is an utter necessity, people don't feel like they are enjoying until the are drowned in glass full of scotch.And those people who still choose to have a glass of orange juice feel like an outsider as if they have no sense of modernized world or what.
Lounges.. the so called 'Most Happening Places to go represent another hang out place for upper classers. Music so loud that you literally have to shout to talk to the person sitting next to you, lights so dimmed that you have to open your mobile to read out the menu card.
I am not at all against adopting the western culture or anything. Even I consider myself a decently modernized enough girl who would love to dress up, have fun, go out with friends but with certain values and principles that I can't ever compromise on my side. But why am I always made to feel like a gawar or a small town person who will never understand what high class things are and I will never be able to grow up from a small town girl status until I start doing all these things. Its a real shock to them when I say I don't drink and yes I have never even tried to taste the Amritras.

Birthday Wish (A post copied from another blog)

The clock has just strike 12 ,

A new day has begun.

A day when many people come and wish me ; bless me ;

Shower love and gifts and what not.

Today is the day , when I’m treated like a Princess.

Nothing I ask is refused.

Everyone is around me,

Surprising me,

Trying to make me happy.

They ask me to make a wish,

The Birthday Wish!

Something rational rather practical.

But at this moment ,

I wanna be alone , silent .

Wanna look at the sky,

Search for the stars

And make a silent wish..

A wish for a person ,

A person , whom right now ,

Yeah! Right now , I can go and hug so tight ,

Cry on his shoulders.

Who can kiss away the pain,

Who can wipe off the tears,

Who can just sit with me,

Who can just take me into his arms,

And make me feel safe.

Someone who can set me free.

And yeah!

Someone who can look me in the eyes and

Say “I missed you” and really means it.

(Touch wood)

P.S. I Love You :-*

Copied from: http://emotionssetfree.blogspot.com/2011/08/birthday-wish.html